I healed myself from my eating disorder.
Journaling and writing
But what this all ultimately amounted to was that I was (at times unknowingly) cultivating a spiritual practice.
I think I’ve always been spiritual but wasn’t fully aware of it until this past decade of spiritual growth.
And I read a sign the other day when I took a trip to my local dispensary that read:
Faith is not believing God can, it’s knowing that he will.
And insert any word you prefer for God: source, the Universe, vortex, nature, etc.
In my path to healing I always had the knowingness that I was not on this journey alone. I didn’t have a word for what (or who) was supporting and guiding me, but I always had faith that I was never alone.
Because for the human body and mind alone to recover from ANYTHING is a gargantuan task. In any recovery and healing process, we are always supported.
Whether that support comes in the way of discovering a meditation practice or stumbling upon teachers, coaches, and therapists that are able to guide you in just the right direction … or a book that truly illuminates what you have been wondering all along …
Universal support and guidance is ALWAYS available to you. You simply have to open up your body, mind, and soul to receive that guidance.
It does not mean that you don’t do any of the work. But that most of the work is in turning inward, getting quiet, and leaving space for that guidance to appear.
And so it was the tools of yoga, meditation, and writing that enabled me to open up this space for my spiritual intuition and connection to strengthen.
So that I was able to recognize (and to this day STILL recognize) when I was potentially harming myself – emotionally, physically, physiologically, etc.
And if I felt I could not do it alone, I asked for guidance.
I ask for guidance every single day. In every situation imaginable.
Again – this does NOT mean that I just sit there and wait for shit to happen. But when I take action, I do so with deep awareness. And I listen and I look for the guidance.
And guess what?
The guidance ALWAYS appears.